Reader’s Mail: He Almost R*ped Me, But I Still Love Him

Hi Ladun,
I’m an ardent reader of your blog. I have a small situation
and I need advice from your blog visitors.
Late last year I met a guy during an economic conference in
Lagos. I was an Usher, and he was one of the conference keynote speakers. The
guy is a good catch by any standard – very charming, handsome, kind, generous
and very wealthy. He’s a popular young oil tycoon in his mid thirties and he’s
unmarried. He is also very  gentle,
humble and God-fearing, a quality I admire especially in men. During the
conference, I was given the task of chaperoning him, and so we were together
quite often during the event. I found myself falling for him, even before he
opened up and told me that he liked me. He asked me to be his girlfriend, said
a lot of sweet words, and I said yes.

When we started dating, I told him that even though I really
liked him, I wasn’t going to sleep with him. I’m not a virgin, but in the last
2 years I’ve been keeping myself for marriage after a promise I made. I’m 28
now and I don’t want to keep sleeping with time wasters.  I told him that the only person I wanted to
have s*x with was my husband. He said he understood, and he’s actually been
very understanding. He loved me, spoiling me with cash and gifts all the time.
I used to use public transport, but he gave me one of his cars and his second
driver to be driving me around since I can’t drive.
We’ve been dating for about 5 months now and we’ve not had
s*x. Every time I go to his house to cook for him or just be with him, he has a
constant erection. He always gets horny when he sees me, and  many times we makeout, but when he tries to have
s*x with me at the last moment, I shove him off. I love him, and I feel immense
s*xual attraction to him, but I don’t want to give myself away till marriage. A
few days ago, I was at his house, and I couldn’t control myself any longer.
When he approached me and started touching me and kissing me, I lost control of
myself and removed my panties. He performed oral s*x on me which I really
thoroughly enjoyed and I came, but just when he was about to penetrate me with
his p*nis, I summoned the strength to push him away just as I always did. 
got angry at that point and manhandled me (for the first time ever). He put one
hand on my mouth to prevent my screams from being heard, and used the other
hand to pin me hard to the cushion. He was apparently very angry at my refusal,
and he was actually going to r*pe me, and I saw it in his eyes. I was scared
and started praying inside me. He was really desperate for s*x, but at the last
minute, he realized he was making a mistake, and he released me and apologized
profusely, saying that the devil got into him temporarily. He didn’t r*pe me,
but it felt as if he did. He started begging me to forgive him. He went on his
knees and all. I just ignored him and ran out of his house. I’ve never been so
scared in my life.
He’s been calling me for days but I hadn’t been picking up.
Then last night he called (I didn’t pick up so it went to voicemail). He said
that he feels so ashamed of what he did (near r*pe), and that he couldn’t even
look himself in the mirror. He broke up with me on the phone, his reason being
that ‘he is not deserving of me’. I have long forgiven him that slight- and my
ignoring his calls was just to punish me, and I even feel at fault because I’m
the one who allowed him to perform cunnilingus on me and left him to dry. I
still love him. Should I go back to him and beg him to take me back, because he
clearly still loves me and wants me back.


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