Wednesday, July 10, 2019

Ariana Grande cries as she talks Mac Miller's death, brief engagement to Pete Davidson

Ariana Grande may seem to have it all - the looks, the money, the red-hot pop star career and the Instagram queen title.

But in the August cover of Vogue - which hits newsstands on July 23 -  she revealed that behind all the slick glam and confidence she is struggling.

She admitted she still finds it difficult to talk about some of the events of the last few years, including the death of her ex Mac Miller last September and the shocking terrorist attack that hit her Manchester concert in May 2017.

'I'm a person who's been through a lot and doesn't know what to say about any of it to myself, let alone the world,' said the former Disney star. 'I see myself onstage as this perfectly polished, great-at-my-job entertainer, and then in situations like this I'm just this little basket-case puddle of figuring it out.'

The No Tears Left to Cry hitmaker headlined the Coachella festival earlier this year but found the experience difficult because it reminded her so much OF Mac, whose real name was Malcolm McCormick and who died from an accidental overdose.

She tearfully told the magazine: 'I never thought I'd even go to Coachella.

'I was always a person who never went to festivals and never went out and had fun like that. But the first time I went was to see Malcolm perform, and it was such an incredible experience. I went the second year as well, and I was just kind of a mindf**k, processing how much has happened in such a brief period.'

She also discussed her brief engagement to Saturday Night Live star Pete Davidson, branding the whirlwind romance an 'an amazing distraction.' (The pair started dating in May 2018, got engaged in June and split in October.)

'It was frivolous and fun and insane and highly unrealistic, and I loved him, and I didn't know him,' she said. 'I'm like an infant when it comes to real life and this old soul, been-around-the-block-a-million-times artist. I still don't trust myself with the life stuff.'

After Mac died she needed time alone, and ultimately turned to music.

'But if I'm completely honest, I don't remember those months of my life because I was (a) so drunk and (b) so sad,' said Grande.